I have this theory

 You know how you look at a picture and it makes you feel something that you can't put your finger on? It happens when you're a kid. Of course you can't put your finger on it. You haven't yet begun to live. You don't have the vocabulary to articulate your feelings. As you get older you see a picture, have an experience, whatever, and it makes you think of something. You can't quite place it. Is it awe? Is it familiarity? We've experienced everything before, and we will experience it again. We will keep forgetting and forgetting. We do this literally in our own lifetime but also in the lives lived before this one and those after. Not quite reincarnation but maybe exactly that. It's like a VHS cassette. It's like mimeograph. Or those soft words in the background. Do you know what I am saying, even a little bit?

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